a penny for your thoughts
words float around and around till there is no more place in my headArchive for October 3, 2008
“The most courage act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.” — Coco Chanel
Oh, you know how it is, when you start doing something and can’t stop even when it is done, e.g., eating a dessert. Or writing a post in your blog. Anyway, day before yesterday I met a handsome guy in this cuber world of post-urbanism. I had this feeling that he might be an emo (not only because of his hair, but also because he had too much videos from AFI in his homepage). This morning he wrote a new post. Something and again something about being alone and his ex-girlfriend (darnit, where do we all meet those crazy people to become our ex-girlfriends/ex-boyfriends?) and (here comes the most important part) about that he didn’t need a girlfriend, wasn’t going to look for one (because there is more disadvantages than advantages for having one) and he could live without sex quite fine. Now I have a question I would like you to answer – since this is kind an awkward thing to hear from a man, could it be that emos are closer to the state where girls are (meaning, can live without sexual relationship)? And if it is so, are gays so into sexual as it is promoted all the time in media? Ok, now even I can’t follow myself so never mind …

I need my plum mascara. Everyone has talked so much about that plum brings out any eye color and hides any redness in eyes that even I start to believe that I need one. I bought mascara in violet, but apparently it is not the same.
oh, my, and guess what I just found – an article about beloved Sonia Rykiel (grandmother’s wigs, remember?) in Elle. Here, read it -
“It wouldn’t be Paris fashion week without a Sonia Rykiel runway fête. The quintessential Parisian designer has reason to celebrate: this season marks her 40th year in fashion. In addition to her own designs, Martin Margiela, Alber Elbaz and Yohji Yamamoto, to name a few, created dresses in honor of Rykiel. To see models dancing down the runway with (gasp!) smiles on their faces puts the fun back in fashion.
-Violet Moon Gaynor”

Apparently me and this Violet Moon Gaynor don’t come from the same street. Although the picture above, which she attached to her little article, isn’t as bad as those I listed before, I don’t believe that she really meant what she wrote. Maybe she was just too scared of this 40-years-around-fashion grandmother to say more. Well, I am not.
“If it captures your imagination, it will captivate others.”
Keep a green tree in your heart and perhaps the singing bird will come.
I am back and hopefully I am back for good. Firstly, I am falling back to my united states of mushrooms. I invited few friends to come over tonight but few hours before they got here I changed my mind. Why? Hell, I don’t know. Probably it goes back to my childhood, when I had more fun on my own and very little friends. Maybe it goes back even further – I had a chat with mom and she felt, IS feeling the same way very often, i.e., she doesn’t want to see anyone, go anywhere, just sit with the family. I guess I will loose all my friends eventually if I will keep going this way, but I just can’t help it. I am born with it. Born in that painful loneliness in my heart. Oh, gosh, can’t believe what I am writing. Sorry, folks, I will make up to you for this lost half a minute of yours.
Now, why don’t we get to something a bit more interesting than my obviously fucked up life? Yes, I have Gossip Girl on my mind (as some other half a million girls in this post-urban age. And I mean it. The age of urbanism is dead and gone, we live in the age of post-urbanism, i.e., planet-destructive, self-loving, lonely age of the second thousand). Well, firstly, I must say I WANT SERENA’S DRESS!! (btw, watch the new episode on megavideo). Although it is not as catchy and heads-turning as the green one she is wearing on the cat walk, this is what I would like to possess.


Somehow I find that everything comes black+white in my life. Same with beauty. When I find something beautiful, e.g, a dress, I immediately find something horrible. So here are my top 4 horrible dresses from Sonia Rykiel (gee, what is this girl thinking about when making her designs? Grandmother’s wigs and Emo dolls?)




“People stare. Make it worth their while.”