Keep a green tree in your heart and perhaps the singing bird will come.

I am back and hopefully I am back for good. Firstly, I am falling back to my united states of mushrooms. I invited few friends to come over tonight but few hours before they got here I changed my mind. Why? Hell, I don’t know. Probably it goes back to my childhood, when I had more fun on my own and very little friends. Maybe it goes back even further – I had a chat with mom and she felt, IS feeling the same way very often, i.e., she doesn’t want to see anyone, go anywhere, just sit with the family. I guess I will loose all my friends eventually if I will keep going this way, but I just can’t help it. I am born with it. Born in that painful loneliness in my heart. Oh, gosh, can’t believe what I am writing. Sorry, folks, I will make up to you for this lost half a minute of yours.

Now, why don’t we get to something a bit more interesting than my obviously fucked up life? Yes, I have Gossip Girl on my mind (as some other half a million girls in this post-urban age. And I mean it. The age of urbanism is dead and gone, we live in the age of post-urbanism, i.e., planet-destructive, self-loving, lonely age of the second thousand). Well, firstly, I must say I WANT SERENA’S DRESS!! (btw, watch the new episode on megavideo). Although it is not as catchy and heads-turning as the green one she is wearing on the cat walk, this is what I would like to possess.

Somehow I find that everything comes black+white in my life. Same with beauty. When I find something beautiful, e.g, a dress, I immediately find something horrible. So here are my top 4 horrible dresses from Sonia Rykiel (gee, what is this girl thinking about when making her designs? Grandmother’s wigs and Emo dolls?)

“People stare. Make it worth their while.”

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