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Archive for October 16, 2008

legend: mythical or supernatural being (wordnet)

in the middle of my working day i got a very strange message. at least i thought it to be strange at first sight – smth and smth about aka, germany and 6 o’clock. when it finally occured to me what it all was about… felt a little scared? smth like that, meaning, oh, gosh, i better start from the beginning, huh? so, what i am writing about is my ex-choir. the scary part about it is that i a) haven’t met most of  them for about a year; b) left them in pretty angry mood; c) just canceled a sleepover with 3 of them, because it just wasn’t my day, and haven’t yet made it up for them (and not sure if i will. ever); d) well, my relationship with the head of the choir have been … hm. how to better put it, i wonder..

anyway, i called one of the only girls i was sure to be happy to see me and asked if that’s ok if i would come by, couse, hey, that message might be just a mistake! (although they bought a ticket for me to gogospel festival in germany, which will start after five (!) days). i went to the fifth floor, got into the appartment and.. there was nothing. no dejavu, no weird feeling about not-belonging there, absolutely noyhing. just screaming kika, who hugged me right away. i placed myself on the floor in the middle of the room (as i used to do 2 years ago) and listened how she introduced me to the new faces (let me tell you, they were more than those i recognized). “well, she is a legend,” kika said to them. i held my breath and waited for a burst of laughing or smth like that, but there were none. she was damn serious. me, legend… can you believe that?

when i finally decided that i need to say hello to the mis director, i was bloody sure she would, well, if not yell at me for coming then at least yell at me for going away. and again, bad emotions – zero. she opened her mouth and made a sound of joy, hugged me and said: “it feels like we said goodbye only yesterday.”

for all the wrong i have done, they still take me as i am with no anger. i love them. germany will be great.

“captivated birds” by ande.